Spectaculared on mud and barbed wire -- it spun and dissolved within me, blazing fire and steam and cold metal as I felt my bones and blood freeze-in (dark)matter. And they ran toward me, murmuring words I could not understand. Their eyes sought forgiveness that I could not deliver. they engulfed me, ripping my clothes and shoes. Gashing through my body; I silenced my screaming-trees, closing and re-opening my eyes. Trying to shake off the deluge. I saw her floating in the air; Images flooded instantly through my head: Water dripping in the subway as I went to pasture them.