לפני 18 שנים. 23 ביולי 2005 בשעה 19:26
I found out that writing is only hard when it needs to original, nothing new here, just another C to V marriage falling apart, or is just my sanity that is breaking down.
the worst of any thing is the lingering doubts, those that sit in the back of my mind, coward, slut, your only here to make sure she cant stand you, this is your easy way out.
experience is gained, slowly by hard work, being smart as an engineer don’t help, being people smart don’t help, friends don't help, family didn't either, talking didn't help, laughing didn't help, crying did nothing- I was done crying a long time ago, damm.
There’s a thin line between love and hate, have we crossed it?
breathing is easy when she is not around, I saw my self today in the mirror standing next to her, my body language is all wrong, I slink, I hide, I make myself smaller, I took a breath, released the air, stretched my back, enjoyed me for a sec…… , her voice dropped back to this world.
Silence is golden, I just never learned to shut up.
I have learned to handle people, army, work, I have read so many books about leadership, about management, I have managed 7 figures projects, why cant I manage my time ? I need four more hours a day.
Will I ever post this? Whining fool.
Shit lets see what happens.
the worst of any thing is the lingering doubts, those that sit in the back of my mind, coward, slut, your only here to make sure she cant stand you, this is your easy way out.
experience is gained, slowly by hard work, being smart as an engineer don’t help, being people smart don’t help, friends don't help, family didn't either, talking didn't help, laughing didn't help, crying did nothing- I was done crying a long time ago, damm.
There’s a thin line between love and hate, have we crossed it?
breathing is easy when she is not around, I saw my self today in the mirror standing next to her, my body language is all wrong, I slink, I hide, I make myself smaller, I took a breath, released the air, stretched my back, enjoyed me for a sec…… , her voice dropped back to this world.
Silence is golden, I just never learned to shut up.
I have learned to handle people, army, work, I have read so many books about leadership, about management, I have managed 7 figures projects, why cant I manage my time ? I need four more hours a day.
Will I ever post this? Whining fool.
Shit lets see what happens.