My secret land

I really should be sleeping, but the last couple of weeks I find myself falling into old patterns. The excessive reading, mostly of smut, the insomnia, the self flagellation. I'm still a somewhat responsible adult,  getting to work on time, making a salad. But I eat less, my body getting used again to the feeling hunger. My mind getting used again to operate sleep deprived. My bank account draining with useless purchases that I absolutely need. I never really "got better", I was always just me, detached from society and carving my own way to nowhere. For now I'll go back to binging Spider-Man The Animated Series and masturbating just like every other night this week. Fun for me.