My secret land

I'm so tired. So completely drained and yet choosing to keep going.

I don't understand myself sometimes, can't anticipate what would break me, can't figure out what could pull me up.

I don't want all the healing and bettering myself. Why do I then? it's hard work, and yet it happens without me noticing. It's like all those shit spam apps like AI bullshit or pirates using your RAM and making your computer slower then a grandma that got shipped off to a nursing home.

That's why I break down so easily, my reserves are already depleted. It's also how they feel full so quickly, the maximum I know is quite low.

My head should always be slightly delirious.