לפני ארבעה חודשים. יום שבת, 14 במרץ 2026 בשעה 15:11
I really am stupid. It's weird that I'm having this realization now again.
When did I forget?
When did I become so arrogant? So disgustingly self centered and thick?
It's disgusting. I maintain the notion that I don't want to make any effort towards anything ever. But that makes me a horrible human being. So I shouldn't be a human being anymore, which would make me even worse, so it's quit a catch 22 situation.
I don't like the way my brain laggs, so slow to make connection, to reach a conclusion, to function on a basic level.
How could I ever think I was smarter then them? It was never true. And it was never more obvious.