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It isn't intimate as your fingers piercing my ribs
It dosen't color my skin in shades of redish blue
Not thrilling, enticing or a ache to indulge on
It's a specific kind of pain and is frustratingly new
The first part of me you claimed was my rib
Forcing finger tips hard to the bone below my breast
It is now forever marked with your prints
The second part of me you conquered was my heart
As you say, I was destined to fall in love with you
It now lays in your hands safe and loved
Today you left your mark on my throat
Showing me again, you are mine just as I am yours
It now holds my head high proudly wearing a collar
I crave to break the box with you
In so many ways and in every direction
Each crack makes me loose
Every thought causes butterfly tension
But the box stays in tact
Cos I don't want you for a week
I don't want you for a month
I just want you
This is the love we chose
Boxed, limitless, and intense
Into your arms I rose
My craving of you is immense
As my longing for you rattles me
I hope you know that I'm with you
Can you feel yourself running through my mind
Playing the stings of your everloving property
When I can't speak, hold, or reach out to you
I close my eyes and again I'm breathing you
אתה כועס על עצמך
כי שכחת מה היום
ונתת לי להשתובב
כמו שאני אוהבת
כשזכרת התחלת לזעום
כעסת על הסדר שלא היה לך בראש
ורציתי קרוב. שתדע שאני לא כועסת.
שגם לך מותר לשכוח
וניסיתי קרוב.
ובזמן שאתה חודר חזק
לא הרגשתי תשוקה. לא הרגשתי קרבה ולא הרגשתי חום.
הרגשתי רק זעם
לרוב יש לי בראש מסר להעביר הרבה לפני שאני מגיעה לכתוב
לרוב יש מקצב ומנגינה לכל מילה שעולה על הכתב
היום אני פשוט מוצפת.
מוצפת כי אתה ממלא אותי בדרכים שאני לא הייתי מסוגלת לדמיין
מוצפת מהכמיהה שלי אל הנפש שלך
האהוב שלי. האדון שלי.
אני כאן ושלך. בכל כולי ועם כל הסחלה
מתענגת על כל רגע שאני זוכה לשקוע בשלך
I hurt you and us
While trying my best to stay with you
You opened yourself up to me
And the damage I did was more than you would bear
So you left
Left and said goodbye
But not to me
Not a goodbye and not a chance to fix what I had done
It cannot be touched
And cannot go unnoticed
Hard to tell if this is us
Or a shadow faded with numbness
Longing to feel like I'm with you again
Yet all I can feel is the distance
I crave it more than the air in my lungs
For I know it is mine and caused by me
The lack of speech only proves how deep
I've weighed it for you to keep
If you need me to beg for it please hear my plee
Give the pain that you feel back to me
As I lay on my stomach
My head tilted left
I can feel your hands on me
Just a drop bellow my chest
You're the last touch I have
Before drowsing to sleep
And the first to make me smile
Waking to another week
