המתת השור

in one moment, havoc came with shouts, anger and silent threats
certainely a moment when i feel lonely
i dont like to confy unless i get understood
if it involves the listener's angst only
then it is not soothing
i dont like to lie to myself
i dont like to be drowned in people's ego and narrow interested goal
i feel like quiting
but i have no choice
and these are the little betrayals of life
then when comes the moment when the events touchlike rain on a duck feathures
this is when one to learn how to protect the core of sensitivity
but this is not life too
confrontation is
maybe there should i take some courses
protecting oneself without betraying one';s integrity
my previous dom had it so right then
i was coming back from work broken by nasty arrows
he would take me to a bdsm club and then make me really suffer, physically
then all the emotional pain becaime purer
and disappeared
i miss that