המתת השור

i have always been the mal aimee
and it is true as a feeling up to today
i donnot feel loved
i donnot feel that love is of a certain esence to be granted
that is why love can be felt like pain

by now, i know that i have a turtuous mind
the pathes through the mind and from the heart are turtuous and complicated
i only have the luxury to express it as it is
hoping that somewhere along the way
somebody will accept me the way i am
that is called loved
quite simply