המתת השור

shortly before the death of my father, we spoke briefly
now i feel the crunch of his death
we are all inhabited by the run after this meaning
i hoped that there was still something to find there in the family
but i feel that i have absolutely nothing
i return to the hope in finding love there
care
wamth
security
but it is all a big nothing
a whole fortnight iafter his death
i have to turn somewhere else
for care; warmth and security
i have nothing