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as i suspected that i musled my heart not be be overburdened by my sensitivity to human despair, it became tho impossible for me to smother my pain when i see or hear of animals....

i hardly know why but i do suspect that deep inside, there is a mix of deep distrust for human capacity not to be cruel and strangely enough emotional dispair at creatures who are delivered and dominated to their destroying hands and whose stories cannot be told ever..since we donnot or would not listen to them 

i think that there is a very basic human caracteristic which is basically hating or rejecting to use understatement the Other. 

for some reason,,,and only did i find an adequate quote about this human caracteristic in the History of the World by Roberts, there seem to be a basic instinct of racism deep inside the human soul and this has led to many most cruelties between one to the other. 

why do we get enstranged by the other ? 

because he is different in whatever way and thus, devoid of all necessity for care and love. 

my attraction for bdsm seems to be an attempt to face the monster in us and as well to be able to tame him

 but i have failed miserably 

so the animals are carrying all the burden or our basic incapacity to feel for the other.m 

it has taken us, in our western society thousands of years to be able to understand that we needed to understand....

and feel...

and the one which was not the "same" did merit the same respect and have the same feelings although unrecognizable through his signals at first look

the sensitivity for  animals will the next empire conqued by our civilization i hope. otherwise, they are, i am afraid, in our modern world,doomed...

erbut progress is going fast...and this is a major discovery yet to be done.