המתת השור

just tired 

of trying 

of trying to find the right words 

of trying to read 

the right lines

i am tired of hoping 

of waiting 

of trying to live and love without 

knowing full well that it is all impossible at that moment 

i am tired to be the shadow of myself 

to feel guilty 

of my own failure and that of others 

i am tired of pitying myself and all what is resemble that 

i would like to put my luggages down on the floor 

put my head upon that shoulder 

and just go out through the door 

where there is a will there is a way 

the only thing is that there is no will 

just what for 

i am tired