המתת השור

that is who I am 

I can't avoid

that is my way to stroll to the heart 

and then twine the feelings 

i am saying something else than birth live and death 

i prefer to concentrate on we leave, we love and we change 

I loved 

when do you know that one loves really

when one deos cry really 

and again, after all these years, i know myself 

a strong character deos not come with a strong resistance 

it really deos

especially now that i am trying to give back some sense of order in my life 

i wanted to give it some time and some leeway to be able to take the jump and you know why

after years of being compulsive in my way of loving 

i have almost succeeded to put it aside and put other things that are within 

out 

i have put aside the sorrow of it too 

i was actually happy 

i am not tonight 

it will pass

it will grow, it will rescind, it will ebb

how do one trust when one has been wounded all his life through ? 

like me 

you do your best 

and you cry 

like  me 

from real sorrow 

one heart felt