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 ..But  never was I able to launch a stable relationship from this platform

99%

of who I did find here were men who only were interested by sex and only

and this is the pity 

there were 3 relationships that were out of this spectrum 

the rest came to screw me and over was it afterwards

some of the worst, if not the worst encounters were made here through this platform

from the individual who totally dispossed me of my belongings and persued me through courts and threats to the ones who  abandoned me within a night 

it is obvious that we, a vast majority of women, do try and find a relationship 

it makes us needy and clinging with men who cannot relate to it. 

of many, few are staying with a woman, and even more are able to promise their heart for their spouse or companion

what did strike me is that the gap between my conception of love and reality was as wide as the black holes which are swallowing all energy in space

it took me 50 years to understand that and today, I am finally myself. it is a pity that i cannot have children anymore 

some of my best sexual adventures were unabled through this platform though 

i will write more about it next time;