סקיצות מחיים דיספונקציונליים

Five days after my initial email requesting a consultation meeting
and 12 hrs after I called you to follow up on it…
And still no reply…

Shame on you, you curmudgeon.
I will not disappear if you ignore me
And I don’t believe that you are so incredibly busy
Too busy to even tell me that you are too busy,
and to tell me to fuck off.
You are unprofessional
You are playing a stupid game
You are only punishing yourself
You may treat me like shit but I won’t say a word
I will just be more angry inside and cold and silent to you
Which will give you great satisfaction.
But you will only lose me as an allay and a friend.
You did it before, and even joked about how you failed to ignore me
And that pushed me too far, and I lost my temper and I retaliated
And you were impressed and full of new respect to me afterwards,
And you even spoiled me a little, and tried to make up for it…
But not for long.
Because at the end you get the last laugh over this rebellion
Because you show me who is the master again.
You control the rewards, the letters of recommendation
And you remind me of this by doing as you please and ignoring me again
It’s your game. You win. Happy now?
But it will be a silent victory for you this time.
You will not provoke me to lose my temper again,
And one day I will have enough, and I will demand to switch you. Permanently.
And you will regret it-I have the feeling,
Because with all your puffed up ego and narcissism
You need the support of your servants and slaves.
Even ill tempered mean masters like you
rise and fall with the support of people.
Especially you, who likes to flirt and taunt,
give and withhold attention and praise at whim,
you love and need to see your impact, the painful result of how you behave
But maybe I will teach you something,
that even you cannot be too cruel to your slave.