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"But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night"
Khalil Gibran

It was beautiful to live"
when you lived!
The world is bluer and of the earth
at night, when I sleep
enormous, within your small hands."

Pablo Neruda
לפני 14 שנים. 20 בינואר 2010 בשעה 5:23


You know that things in your life have taken a turn for the bizarre when you realize that each time you do something, no matter what it is, you automatically, silently and internally, assign yourself a LOLcats caption.

The following are from the previous 48 hours.

On hearing that a colleague from work is ill:
"Oh noes! Hope u feelz bettr."

On being flattered by an EMRF of a DOM for skills of an oral nature:
"I iz good kitteh, blowjobs is my speshalti"

On feeling rain land on hair, unexpectedly:
"Oh noes. Iz bad hare dayz"

Ahem.

Is this a sign of the times, or have I finally lost it?

On my vanilla FaceBook account, in my status, I asked my friends to assign one word which described me. Among "kind, loyal, generous, bubbly, cattish and penguiny" (I shit you not, gentle reader) were included quite a few variations on the theme of "daft as a brush".

Le sigh. It's all twoo.

Although I does love the LOLcats. Mind you I luvz the Big Bad Cat, so it shouldn't come as any great shock to anyone who knows me.

*cattish smirk* 8-)

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לפני 14 שנים. 18 בינואר 2010 בשעה 19:20


In a week or so it's my birthday.

Last year was.... *significant*.

This year, even more so. Life refuses to stand still, and so I march along with it, occasionally keeping pace, sometimes being dragged along -- often by the hair, mostly in the fun way -- sometimes falling behind, but like i said, keeping the pace.

I floated through so much of my life -- eight whole fucking years -- or, more to the point, eight years of a studied absence of fucking. I spent the time working, being a Mommy, avoiding the elephant of doom who was standing in the middle of the room, shifting uncomfortably from massive foot to massive foot and letting fly the occasional well-placed crap.

Le deep et heavy sigh.

My mortality is looming large. After years of clicking my fingers and pooh-poohing people telling me I'd have rheumatism or arthritis, I now believe I may have it. In my index finger. Mildly -- I can, fortunately, for the sake of my continued sanity, still write and type easily.

I have aches and pains all over -- I recently rediscovered my rikudei am fetish, and it is taking over. Not to the extent of surpassing my other, less vanilla, and way more kinky fetishes, including my apology fetish. (Oh, how Don Gato likes to torment me about that. That evil, mean and rotten cat.)

On the other hand, of course, I have never felt better in my life. I could so give a shit about my aches and pains... and even my fast-approaching older-than-Methusaleh-type age. I owe that to the very special people in my life, especially my good friends, and my wonderful Dom. Evil, mean and rotten though he may be. Miau.

Life is good. Painful fingers notwithstanding. And even though I'm gettin' old.

😄

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לפני 14 שנים. 15 בינואר 2010 בשעה 7:31


I have a new nephew!

Yay!

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לפני 14 שנים. 14 בינואר 2010 בשעה 19:24



I lie, eyes blindfolded, face down.

He is above me, with his arm under me, cradling my breasts as he holds me still and close.

His other hand weilds an ever-changing variety of implements, and as they rain down a hailstorm of blows on my backside, I alternately squeal and squeak with pleasure-pain.

Sometimes nothing but his bare hand lands on my ever-reddening skin. A spank or two, followed by a loving soft stroke.

I snuggle closer into the arm that holds me tight, enjoying the sweet proximity.

So happy. So in love. And if it needs saying -- *such* a pervert.

8-)

לפני 14 שנים. 13 בינואר 2010 בשעה 19:25

של...

אושר
כאב (טוב)
כיף
קירבה רגש
הנאה
אהבה

הדהמה
מכות (בהסכמה)
חיבה
גירוי
אוכל
אהבה

צעצועים
סקס (מדהים)
משחקים
אושר
שמחה
אהבה

סאב-ספייס
צפרות (ציפורים אמיתיים!)
ג'אז
שירה
ניסיונות
אהבה

קליפים
קשירה (גם הדגמה)
הצלפות
ליטופים
זוגיות
מאנצ'ים (מס' 4 יוצא לדרך!)
מסיבה
סשנים
נשיקות
חיבוקים
אהבה

אין לי מילים לתאר את השנה האחרונה שלי איתך. אתה החתול הרע, הדום שלי, יקיר שלי, אהובי.

אתה נוגע בי גם בגוף, וגם בנפש. החזרתי לי את האימון באנושות ובאהבה אמיתית.

קשה לי להאמין שכבר חלפה שנה ואני כל כך מאושרת על כך. תודה לך על הכל -- במיוחד שאתה כל כך אתה -- מעומק ליבי.

לדן קאפ -- האיש, החתול, האגדה, אני שלך... כסאבית, טאבי וורודה ו"Teutonic Temptwess"
לילי x

לפני 14 שנים. 9 בינואר 2010 בשעה 21:56



I am *such* a pervert. You wouldn’t believe it. I certainly can’t.

It just never seems to properly sink in.

No matter what I do, or what I write — not just here but on Twitter, Fetlife, and various local sites, no matter where or what I write or discuss, the reality of the depth to which my various kinks, fetishes and perversions sink simply does not ever fully register.

It’s utterly bizarre.

Even my latest email from the Big Bad Cat which begins “Hello, my dear Pervert!” doesn’t help it sink in.

And then we meet. He takes me in his arms, and kisses me passionately, and then tweaks my nipple eliciting a high-pitched squeal from me, causing my knees to buckle, and my cunt to moisten.

And I say it. Every time, the same phrase.

“Dear lord, I am *such* a pervert.”

I think Purrrrvert sees it as some kind of a challenge, as if I were sitting there on the bed, nonchalantly tossing gauntlets in his direction.

He raises a hand and lands a plump thwack on my backside. I absorb the blow, squeaking with pleasure-pain. Though I was brought up to wish an end to pain when it happens, the knee-jerk reaction that flies impossibly through my head is always “Thank you, Sir. May I have another?”

I love how it feels. The sensation of the thudding palm against my softly reverberating ass. It always makes me shiver with delight and then angle myself slightly forward, to be able to absorb another.

When he reaches into his big black bag of toys and pervertibles and withdraws the little mesh bag of kitchen utensils, I know I’m in for some fun. The fish slice is a bastard. The ladle is a fucker. The stainless steel egg-whisk is a total bastard fucker. The spatulas — one red and flat and slappy, the other more aesthetically pleasing, purple and ergonomically designed, with a twin who lives in my kitchen — but I use it *as* a spatula, earning me the nickname of “true pervert” — both have ways to cause me to groan, gasp and even gush with sheer pleasure.

How do I reconcile the character image of the nice Jewish girl I was brought up to be, and the fact that kitchen hardware makes me leak cunt-juice all over the sofa? Philosophically, it’s quite a conundrum. I mean, I’m on the parents’ committee of my kid’s class, for fuck’s sake. I sit in meetings, discussing the end-of-year event, and whether we should have a barbecue or go to the beach, offering sage and sound advice about the safety of our children and how best to get the other parents to produce food marginally more exciting than a plate of devilled eggs, and other such deeply significant banalities – and deep inside I silently wonder whether anyone would notice if I had a crafty wank in the guest bathroom, and whether, if I pinched my own nipple hard enough to make myself scream, I could resist the temptation to do so, and remain silent.

He ties me up, and I zoom so fast into subspace it’s a wonder I haven’t been diagnosed with whiplash. Last week, as previously documented, I allowed him to do a demo on me of breast bondage — after which my feet did not touch the ground for over four days straight.

This is not the reaction of a normal person, is it? Mind you, who the fuck ever wanted to be normal?

My constant refrain, when he arouses me with a word, an act or a specific command, is “I am *such* a pervert!” It’s very true… and I freely admit that I am proud to be so. It’s difficult to explain to people in the vanilla world — one of these days I will have to explain to my sexually-liberated-but-very-vanilla-with-it BFF.

That’ll be an experience.

It is by allowing my inner pervert to rise up and embrace my outer, seemingly well-behaved, conformist, afraid of authority shell of a self who floated through eight years of control-freakism, that I become the real me and experience real life. I value that beyond belief, and now that I’ve discovered what it is to really live, I wouldn’t give it up for the world.

Normal? Maybe.

Necessary? You bet your ass.

Perverted? Totally.

לפני 14 שנים. 9 בינואר 2010 בשעה 14:23


Restrained, and spread across the bed, blindfolded and purring. That was me. Yes, purring.

Honestly, in terms of moments I can specifically recall in a session, it was one of, if not, the best.

I don't know if you can call it subspace, i wasn't feeling my traditional float-above-myself-and-watch feeling, but I was blissfully happy. Blissed out, even.

Bliss.

My ability to move was, understandably, extremely limited. I wasn't complaining, nor did I mind the fact that my eyes were covered -- it not only added to the deliciously expectant tension, but it heightened my sensibilities so that I could have heard a pin drop. Felt it, even.

When the evil cat demands that I cover my eyes, I never know what to expect. I had a feeling we might be about to engage in some mild abrasion play, when i suddenly senses his head at the side of my waist, and I heard a long, inquisitive "snifffffffffffff".

Curiosity being what it is, second nature to a cat and all, I couldn't stop myself asking.

"Er.... Don Gato, what are you doing?"

No reply, just further and more tactile sniffing. His head moved around my generously curvy waistline. and up one edge of my body, thoroughly covering the area under my arm and slowly moving ever upwards until he reached my shoulder -- whereupon he sighed happily, and bit me. In a nice way.

Rawrrrr.

I thrashed my head about hoping to make some sort of contact, and finally succeeded -- although I think he was throwing me a bone**, so to speak, by moving towards me -- as I felt my lips make contact with the side of his head. Planting tiny, affectionate butterfly kisses up wherever my mouth met skin: on his cheek, his forehead, his nose, his eyelids -- while he continued to smell me, returning the occasional soft kiss here and there.

"Hello you," I whispered, feeling his breath on my neck.

"I love this neck," he murmured into it, continuing to smell me. "I love the scent of you, I love gathering it into my lungs -- all of you."

I felt myself blush. I pride myself on being clean, and I often tend to wear a lovely French perfume, but like any human being, why I sweat, it's not Dior droplets that escape. And in a session -- well, while I love everything that happens, and personally adore the combined smell of our bodies, and the various escaped fluids -- it doesn't exactly smell like roses.

"Really?" I couldn't help myself exclaiming.

By now his inquisitive feline nose was examining the area around and under my breasts, currently covered in a light, slippery sheen.

His answer was clearly genuine.

"I love inhaling your scent from under the Girls, your cunt, your neck, your back -- everywhere. I leave you, and you're still with me for hours. It's all such a part of you."

I wished my blindfold would melt away so i could see his face -- and almost magically, as if he heard me, he removed it.

Blinking somewhat, I stared up into that glorious blue twinkle, radiating in the warmth of the love emanating from his eyes.

"You like how I smell?"

"I love how you smell, all of you. Up here (snifffffffff), down here (snifffffffff), under here (sniff sniff sniffff)."

I was speechless -- an event in and of itself. Felling him inhale along my body was the most unbelievable turn-on, as if I weren't aroused enough already.

Grabbing a handful of my hair with one hand, he pulled my head back and around and leaned in towards me, his other hand squeezing the right Girl in one of his continual attempts to get either her or her twin lactating.

He kissed me, an incongruously soft and tender kiss, given the circumstance. And then landed me a good whack across the first Girl, and then the second. And then bent his head to sniff them again, and smiled. I shivered happily.

It just doesn't get any better than this.


** I will have to pay later for using a canine cultural reference in a piece, I hope you all know the lengths I go to and the risks I take in the name of art, and specifically for you, gentle reader.

לפני 14 שנים. 8 בינואר 2010 בשעה 20:25



I dreamed of how your hand felt inside me.

So vivid was the dream that I could feel your fist move, twist and turn, shaping itself into the perfect formation to spread and stimulate me from within.

I feel it even now, as though i was still lying beside you, still, pliant and obedient. Twitching and jerking from both the aftershocks of one gushing orgasm, and the tingles of another.

This dream was a case of art imitating life, not the other way around. You are constantly in my head, my heart, my ears, my cunt.

Dreamy, yes but real.

לפני 14 שנים. 7 בינואר 2010 בשעה 18:08


That in many ways, today sucked the big one, and I'm deeply glad that it's nearly over.

In many ways also, of course, there were elements of today that could be closely associated with heaven.

Watch out for my next piece, to be entitled "Inhale".

Sympathy, flowers and of course chocolate more than welcome in the comments. Even if it is virtual. 8-)