לפני 14 שנים. 5 בינואר 2010 בשעה 11:59
I begin with a quote from that wisest of prophets, Douglas Adams (ז"ל):
"The History of every major Galactic Civilization tends to pass through three distinct and recognizable phases, those of Survival, Inquiry and Sophistication, otherwise known as the How, Why, and Where phases. For instance, the first phase is characterized by the question "How can we eat?" the second by the question "Why do we eat?" and the third by the question "Where shall we have lunch?""
Following on from my expose of the connection between "How I Got Into BDSM" and my fabulous (yet to the untrained eye normal-if-voluptuous) breastage, my aim in this post is to examine the How, Why and Where phases of me -- Lilly the Pink Tabby and Teutonic Temptwess -- in the world of BDSM.
Why am I here? Simple. I'm a pervert. It's such a shame that the word has such a negative connotation, when in reality what it means is "alternate" or "different". To pervert the course of justice, for example, is to take it along a very different path from that which it was intended. Thing is, I never thought I was a pervert. I thought i was a weird chick, with fabulous tits (that did nothing for her in any sexual context), and a penchant for strange rape fantasies.
I could never speak about any of this to anyone I knew because if I did they'd think I was certifiable, and send for the men in white coats. I realise now, what with retrospect being 20:20 and all, that the reason I had rape fantasies was because it was the only cultural frame of reference in which I could fit my innermost desires of pain, violence, and restraint in any positive manner.
And since anything even vaguely resembling kinksters, or S&M (as it was known in those days) or anything abnormal or weird-seeming was not something that nice good religious Jewish girls did or associated themsleves with.
Heh, how wrong can a person be?
How did I get here? Well, to cut a long story short, after an eight-year dearth of sex in any shape of form, my sex drive suddenly re-awoke and I fell in love for the first time, with a kinky transvestite who lived overseas.
And so I was introduced to the world of kinky sex, and I realised that I'd been holding myself back for years, because i was conditioned from childhood to be that nice Jewish girl... i'm still all of the things I was brought up to be -- and also a raging pervert. In the nicest possible way.
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That was how I got here, or rather, that was portal through which i started on a voyage of discovery, upon which I am still engaged -- each day brings me something new to learn and at which to marvel.
The where question -- well, how would you define that? Where am I going? Where indeed, Douglas my old mucker, are we having lunch? (I vote for sushi.) Fuck knows. All I know is that as the journey goes on and the path I follow develops becomes longer, and more exciting, so I become more true to myself.
Long may it continue.
(Probing questions in comments will be answered seriously and at length.)
