In the Pink

I'm no longer what you would call an observant Jew, not by any stretch of the mark. Although I used to be, believe it or not -- ain't that just a kick in the pants?

My faith is my own and very personal, and comes from deep down within me, despite appearances to the contrary. Certain observances and rites are important to me, for both nostalgic and philosophical reasons.

It's important to me that I behave in as appropriate a manner as I can -- all the time, not just during the ten days of penitence. I make a point of trying to do the right thing whenever possible; moreover I make a point of trying not to be petty, and spiteful and malicious -- as is easy to get dragged into being when one exists within a small community such as the world of Israeli BDSM.

However, if there are people out there who feel that I have not been the best Lilly I could be this year, or that I have shown them unjustified contempt or demonstrated bad will toward them in any way, I ask for and would hope to receive your forgiveness.

I have dug deep down into my heart to find the forgiveness that I know I should show to those who have done me wrong. And it worked. I've done it -- just about.

Note: It takes a lot of effort, and perseverance to achieve this, but the inner peace that this generates is worth it. It's surprising the effect that casting away the feelings of being maligned and wronged can have on a person.

I wish all of us a year of peace -- of happiness, joy, love, achievement, success and the fulfillment of all our dreams. And for those of you fasting, may it go speedily and easily, with minimal caffeine headaches.