Anjelina{Eliphal}

Master's perfect Angel

It is the chiefest point of happiness
that a man is willing to be what he is

Desiderius Erasmus

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לפני 12 שנים. 16 בדצמבר 2011 בשעה 19:22

July I hope you do not mind my responding to You through my blog and not in the forum.

The sharing is not a fantasy fulfilling for us, it is O/our way of life, it a normal routine, however to the eyes of an outsider it may seem a fantasy or romance or even a dream. Though I admit, there are times after W/we make love and yes I do look at the intensity of O/our relations as making love, I feel like I am waking from a dream and other times a romantic affair. What W/we do and how we approach one another is one hundred percent O/our reality.

The reality is Eli is my Master and I am his slave and property. My priority and happiness is surrounds Eliphal completely. Eli and I have very close friends who are of like minds and behaviour and great support to us both. Very special people to us and always will be golden in O/our eyes and considered a part of our family.

I am always asked how I can do this, and if I can come out and be with someone just like that. I will answer you very simply no I cant do it, I cant go out and be with a stranger or even look at another man in the eye without thinking how it will be interpreted by that man or others observing the interaction.

This interaction is not restricted to public, but at home as well, for example, if a soldier visits I NEVER look them to the eyes directly. Eliphal is the only Man to whom I will direct my gaze voluntarily. And on the other hand there are close friends of Eli to whom I am instructed to meet eye to eye if requested.

I don’t feel comfortable with strangers touching me even in a casual manner. My body belongs to Eli and this is exactly how I feel about it even in a mixed and casual settings. Do you as a woman feel comfortable being touched on the wrist in public by someone you don’t know in front of your partner?

From the start of the day to the end of the day I belong only to one Man, my Master Eliphal. And He is the most important Man in my eyes next to O/our son obviously, who like his father is a very demanding little Master.

Yes I am honestly and truely happy with Eli, all anyone needs to do is talk to me and they will understand exactly how happy I am with Him not just as His wife and a mother to His kids but as a woman and His slave.

I am not a submissive please don’t confuse me with this. A submissive has no Master instead it is a one person Dominated by another with no commitment. I pleasure first Eliphal before myself, as well I receive a great amounts of pleasure in my pleasuring Him physically, mentally and emotionally.

As I have said before this is my reality not a fantasy. My life is 24 hours 7 days a week controlled by one Man, Eliphal my Master. Yes I do know people who are partial controlled but they are still mindful that their first priority in any situation is to their Master.

With Eli my safety is always first, not just my physical safety but my mental and emotional state as well. So this forum about the group sessions when Eli wrote I am His doll I laughed a little because it was so true I am His doll I am His property I am His whore I am His slut His bitch His little girl and I belong completely to him I am whatever he wants. I do not need to explain myself to anyone but to Eli.

Maybe you will ask how I am controlled when Eli is working. Again I have a very simple answer, I am a source of pride for my Master I am a part of Him no matter where He is or where I am. It could be something as small as the way I sit in public or how my nails are painted to the way I present myself to visitors. Word gets around fast Israel is after all a small country. Eli will hear about it if not from me then someone else.

I always do my best to put my best foot forward both publically and privately. I am my Master’s slave, it isn’t always easy Eliphal is a perfectionist and I do get the occasional do it again and again and again but I will never complain.

And as a side to anyone who says that no one is perfect. I agree with you completely. I make daily mistakes and I recognise them even when they are not pointed out to me. I admit I was not born perfect I make mistakes, after all I am human.

In the eyes of my Master I am perfect even when I make those silly mistakes. The fact I am perfect in His eyes is MOST IMPORTANT to me.

So to End I will say this. I belong to Eli always and in every way, my life and my safety are entirely in His hands. I am my Master’s source of pleasure and pride. I am His life not just His wife.

I am Eliphal’s slave and I am proud to say it out loud and with a clear voice for everyone to understand.

Note: If there is anything you don’t understand please ask I will do my best to explain to You.

LillyVonSchtupp(מתחלפת){Dan_Kap} - I like how you make a clear distinction between being a submissive and being a slave. The definitions of each are particular to the person who self-determines as either a slave or a submissive, so I'm not sure that it's entirely correct to say that with a submissive there is no commitment, but it is very true to say that there are fundamental and ideological differences.

I love how you are so openly committed to Eliphal -- as he is to you. If anyone needed an instruction manual with an example of how to do 24*7 M/s -- you guys are it.

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - Oh goodness not an instruction Manual!!!!! Just to write one would drive me insane :-).

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LillyVonSchtupp(מתחלפת){Dan_Kap} - Make it a pictures-only manual... :-)

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - OK OK you win I cant fight this battle. Here I will write instruction Manual right now in this message with a few words.

Master Is first always
There is no such a word as no or enough

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - There are those Dominant submissive relations that turn into Master slave relations at a later point and that is a commitment, but here in particular I am refering specifically to the ideal a Dominant can walk away with no attachment to the submissive no feeling and no concern beyond the time spent together. Whereas a Master slave relation you cant because the slave is an extension to the Master or organ

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Brave Dwarf - Hey, Lill,
Anjelina gave Me her permission to comment you (it's her blog after all) so if you don't mind as well, there are a few things I would like to say about your comment.

When I was reading Anjelina, I thought the same. But I think it's a "sin" of every new person in the scene, and Anjelina is still kinda new. She knows Me for 2y and a half, so it's not enough time to get rid of the definitions yet. We all need them at start to understand our self and to find a group of people alike which will accept us. To become a fully and whole individual takes time. I remember Myself at My start when I was like: "what the fuck? Aftercare, beforcare, middle care… And what if I don’t do those? Then who the fuck am I? I better not tell them that I don't do this shit, it will be My secret". And there were zillion secrets like that in My pockets, secrets I didn’t share with a living soul in the cage, because I saw what happening to the guys who did tell! They were called dangerous, not Masters and 5 mins before murderers. But as the years passed by, I lost the definitions, they became unimportant. I stopped being a Master and My life stopped being a BDsM life. It turned to be just Me and My life and all the definitions were left to others.

Do you understand what I mean? So Anjelina now at the place where she still needs the definitions, where she is scared to cross a borderline between them, or to make them more flexible, because if she will, in her eyes, her own definition will be damaged. Give her a few more years and she will not give a damn shit about them. Well, at least I think that's how it works. And you? (-:
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LillyVonSchtupp(מתחלפת){Dan_Kap} - Firstly, let me state for the record that I did not intend in any way to attack or upset Anjelina -- on the contrary -- I loved her post, and I have the utmost respect both for her and for you. My point was to try to present the option that a D/s definition can have commitment in a way that is different to M/s but is no less genuine or sincere.

Anjelina is right in saying that a 24*7 M/s lifestyle is very different to a non-24*7 D/s lifestyle. It doesn't necessarily mean a lack of commitment just because a person self-defines as a submissive

I understand that for Anjelina, submission means something that when juxtaposed with slavery, is not how she understands BDSM to work -- or rather, how it does not work for her. Which is completely fine -- the beauty of the BDSM lifestyle is that it is an entirely individual definition -- otherwise, as you so rightly say, we end up dealing with players who understand very little and are only too likely to end up being abusers.

I offer myself as an example. I am not a slave, and Dan is not my master. He is my Dom, andI am his sub (one of them) and he is as completely committed to me as I am to him. We discussed commitment as early as 3 months into our relationship when he asked to collar me (he eventually did so after 8 months together, at my request) but it was clear to me that the collaring was a symbol of a deep and committed understanding between us that I valued then as much as I do now or ever will.

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Brave Dwarf - Oh Lill
this the way you understood Me?
I meant GOOD
I really meant to say that we both - you and Me - understood it the same

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LillyVonSchtupp(מתחלפת){Dan_Kap} - See above -- somehow I managed to reply to my own comment.

*Headdesk*

:-)

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Brave Dwarf - Saw and responded!
Lill, I agreed with you

I still do.

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Brave Dwarf - Oh Lill
this the way you understood Me?
I meant GOOD
I really meant to say that we both - you and Me - understood it the same

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - I didnt get upset nor saw you as an attack on me if I did your post would have stayed or been deleted :-) Love you too much to delete you miss lilly :-)

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תמונה כפרית - I have read you all, & everything i read i made me smile :-)
the thing with people here is that which one of us have a bit different view on what is BDsM
and we all live it live it in different ways
for many people here your way of living is very different from what they know, some may even consider them abusive, as they see thing only through their eyes & their experiences.
You opened a window to a world that most of us didn't even dream of. I remember when Eli first told me of his way of life. I remember telling him how it all resonated in me.
I think that your way of life requires maybe a different type of commitment. It is not more other less than other types of relationships but maybe rather something in the essence of things.
The most important thing in my eyes is being happy & content. The feeling of bliss that surrounds you when the relationship you are is the right one for you

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - Love You. kisses and hugs :-)

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יולי Yuli(לא בעסק){טדי} - I didn't notice you wrote this, until now.
It's such a pleasure to read you, you know? So smooth and clear.

Anyway, to the content: A strange thing happened to me while reading. When I read Eli's response I felt it's about a world far away, much different from my own.
And now that I read you, I felt I understand you completely, and in many ways feel exactly the same.
At first I thought is was your good writing, that made it all so easy to grip. But that can't be JUST that.
Then I thought that it's easier for me to understand when I hear it from you and not him - for two reasons: One is that you're a woman, like me, that's why you are clear to me, more than a man.
The second is that you were the one people get worried about, since you are the slave and he is the master. People fear you might be a victim. So it's better to hear if from you.
I think I know exactly what you're talking about. I know that feeling - having your life be around that one man. I know how good it feels.
How great it is to be loved just the way you are.

Regarding our conduct when our man is away - sure, always. I don't even think about "he might find out". Even if he never does, I need to know I'm worthy of his trust.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING THIS.
Back then I wished I could ask YOU. Funny I didn't think I can actually get that answer :)
And also, I enjoyed reading you regardless of the triger.
Thank you.

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Anjelina{Eliphal} - Thank you Juli for taking your time to read

Congratulations on your upcoming wedding.

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Brida(נשלטת){DDDOM} - Wow, so good of you Anjelina,
to share your most sacret secrets with the people
of thecage.
Even thou I don't understand why you feel like you need to explaine youself.
My Husbend, My Lord calles me
My love, My queen, My wife, and also My Little Whore.
What happens between two people, only they know.
And as I commented in the forum, me being "shared" is somthing we never talked about, so I really don't know about it.
All I know is that if he is disapointed, I can not sleep at night,
And if he would choose to share me with others I will do as told.
BDsM 24/7 is not easy, it is a life mission, but so rewarding
I love you both, very very much,
All the best of love and happiness }{

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