Recently it came to my understanding that there are some cage members who think because I don't post a blog each day means I am not real but a figment of the imagination and completely made up by my husband. That all he writes about is the good and not everything in the world is good therefore it is fake or false.
What He and I write is our decision of what we would like to share in our personal lives. We don't have an obligation to share it with anyone here in cage. Consider it a privilege that we have taken the time and effort to include you in our happiness, our love for one another and pride in each other.
Just because we don't share our problems in cage doesn't mean they don't exist. He is a soldier and I am his wife and mother to twins. There is a lot of travel in our lives and when Eli is not home for 3 days and I am alone with the nanny and kids I don't have to come to cage to tell my nervousness or my thoughts about where is he, what he is doing, when he will be back, what I am cooking, did I sleep or not. It is no one's business here how my days are spent or where I am when I spend them.
The only person to whom I answer to at the end of the day is Eliphal. I belong to Him in all ways my every breath and thought and desire.
If what I have said here today is not to your likening you can just as well go find a life. I have one and I am living it to the fullest of my ability. After all of the hurt that I personally have suffered here in cage forums, my unwillingness to participate in forums shouldn't be a surprise to anyone. After all it is Eli's and my life. You don't have to approve of what we write or disclose. It is OUR decision to share our love and nothing more in cage.
So when someone has enough time to decide that I am not real but a made up figment of my husband's imagination, I am allowed to be upset. But you know what I am better than you are as a person because I don't need to tear someone else down to make me look good or feel good. When you'll take the time to have a conversation with me, you'll learn what kind of person I am. I don't need to sink to your low disgusting levels.
My life is not yours.
