חולת אהבה בשיכון צריכה זין

I ate more shit than anyone else
not because I'm more humiliation hungry nor desperate

Not even because I know you loved me more than you ever loved all the others

But because I loved you more than all.
I loved you more than you'll ever understand
I loved you more than you are capable to comprehend

I hear things some of the women you played
(and for some reason think you still can)
say about you, think about you , don't really feel for you
and it hurts me.

It hurts me because I loved you
because I believed in you
because I knew how hard it is for you to truly open your heart again
becuse I know, just like you do, our love was very true
and that it was no accident we were given this chance

and maybe also because I'm a fool
who still wants to believe in change
it doesn't really give you an aliby to treat me this way

Also,
I got a conscience

And it's hard to love anyone who is so willing to hurt others this way.

It was never masochism for me, it really ain't my thing.
I just really wanted us to be the little engine that could.
You know, like the story you will never read to your kids.

You want them more than I do
although we both know how good of a mom I'll be.

I just loved you
and wanted you to be happy.

Man, how sad you made me in return.

[stop bragging about it - it's ridiculous and nowhere near anything remotely complimenting for a man. Is this really the best you can? 'cause realising that is where you can hear the sound of my heart breaking]

I shouldn't bother
I should concentrate on giving other men a fair chance
and forget you.

Hope I'll make it.