last night was anther night like every night that I give in to my urges my needs, like jackal and hyde, something awakens in me the need to just feel someones flesh against mine.
so, I went out I mingled and flirted my way into anther girls bed… I know its not what i am looking for, its not what i really want but fuck I can not just wait for the right woman to just drop from the sky and cradle my desires of the flesh and mind without me playing the hunting game.
Jackal and hyde… haha its suites me, I become the “Player” calm and calculated, knowing when to say the right things and knowing how to play hard to get.
Sometimes I think how can a girl fall for this bullshit, I am not your prince charming came to swop you off your feet and lead you to your ever lasting happiness.
“Unless your happiness is being my sex toy for the night.” - he said with a giggle of sarcasm.
Me - Hey, how are you - yes, its simple to start a conversation, you don't need some fancy openers you don't need to lay a red carped at her feet just open your mouth say something socially acceptable and proceed from there.
ohh and always look into there eyes no matter what you say, be sincere.
The girl - hey how are you, I like your shirt its cool - she said looking at her plastic glass of vodka and red-bull.
Me - I’m good thank you, you look beautiful but your shoes really don't match that dress, didn't your mother teach you how to present yourself - i said with a half smile hinting with my eyes at her legs and shoes.
The girl - wow, no one has ever said something like that to me before your a real ashole - looking at me disapproving but with a vague interest.
Me - i am so sorry for being honest your right lets start over, wow you are so pretty do you come here often, can i buy you a drink. i love your dress it underlines all your best features. - as i said that i lend over the bar looking away from her showing disinterest as if i couldn't careless, she was good looking and I did think about her body “her features” a nice round ass and medium sized breasts, curly black hair a shirt cocktail dress with the back open and tight end just above the knees, it didn't revel to much leg but it revealed just enough to see that she had well toned legs she wasn't wearing stockings which bothered me, i like when a girl puts some effort into the way she presents herself and that just seemed lazy to me.
The girl - ok I have to get back to my friends it was nice talking to you bye - she was saying that in hope to peak my interest i knew she wanted to play hard to get, to try and break through my exterior bullshit and see if i am worth her time, its an endless game isn't it ?.
we all do it, at work, at home, in a club or a coffee shop we play games with people trying to gauge who or what they are, if they can or cant give us what we want.
its all a game but every game has rules, I like rules as much as i like breaking them…
for me a rule is a guide line its not a limit, i try and stretch it, how far can i manipulate these rules in my favour how much can i break them.
Me - I want to dance with you tonight, it doesn't have to be now or later, i don't care about your friends I came here for you, I wanted to meet you and dance with you, you see the whole reason we are here is to have fun, to socialise and to mate, maybe i will fall in love with you, or maybe you will fall in love with me, we wont know that if you wont dance with me. - I was staring straight into her eyes i didn't lift my gaze from her for a single second i didn't want to break contact i placed my hand on her elbow grabbing her gently, i created a space with her, making her feel that for a split second there was no one else there, only us only me and her…
I made an intimate moment i wanted to give her a taste of what being with me felt like.
its the smallest things that a man can do to make a girl feel special its not the roses or chocolates its not the gifts or time. its all about intimacy, I mean if a man can make a girl feel special and comfortable enough to make a fool of herself he can make her do anything he wants, as long as he gives her the feeling that only he and he alone sees her for who she wants to be.
The girl - haha… i never heard that pick up line before your cute, so when are we going to have that dance then. - she fell for it, it was as easy as placing an order, there was no excitement in the actual doing but in the anticipation of the out come, so I toke her other hand in mine and i lead her straight to the dance floor.
I am not the best dancer i don't think I'm even a good one but i can feel the beat in my body and i know how to lead.
however, there is so much more to it then just that, you have to be easy and comfortable with yourself make mistakes as much as you can but smile and lough at yourself know that you are not the best and show that you don't care, make the effort to show her a good time and she will submit to the show, If you can do that you get the girl.
I danced and touched her body, i kissed her hand and then her cheek and before she knew it i was tongue deep in her mouth and my hand was grabbing her ass.
Now in order not to make this post longer then it already is and of course not to reveal all my secretes and tricks i will spare you the remaining details and just continue on.
at her apartment
now this is where things get interesting, every sexual encounter is different, let me rephrase that.
to a boy that wants to just fuck and cum everything is the same the only difference is what the girl did or didn't do.
to me every one but every encounter is completely different, I enjoy giving pleasure the satisfaction of making a girl cum is the best ego and moral bust ever, plus its the most sexiest thing there could be.
she is not my submissive this is vanilla but still there is the hint and smell of sexual domination in it.
and here is where i thrive, this is the singular place where I feel the best me i could be.
I am hyde: selfish, daring, devilish and to be frank my dear i just don't give a damn.
I go up the stairs with her to her room, i let her twist the key without saying anything i act calm, after i hear the lock twist and knock into place the handle pushed and the door swing open. I start to show my dominance, I put my hand on her shoulder pushing gently directing her to move inside without turning to me, giving her the feeling that there is no turning back.
once inside i ask to use the wash room, I go take a piss wash my hand and wipe my cock, i leave the first button of my pants unbuttoned but still firmly around my waist.
i locate the most comfortable spot to sit and take my rest there.
The girl - do you want something to drink - looking at me tenderly and shy, the is always the feeling that a girl gives “maybe i made a mistake, maybe he will think that i am easy or bad or something, what am i really doing, is this good what am i doing ohh he's here already and he drove me home i cant just say get out, well i might just drink a cup with him talk and see. he is cute and i like this and that and blah blah blah” that feeling a girl shows you is very important if she is thinking that then you know its all in your hands.
here is where the control happens, you see, if she made her mind that she is going to sleep with you then its a done deal and we just do what we do, but if there is a struggle, if there is no one out come, then here is where i either take control or leave it to her, most likely ending with me going home with my cock in my hand.
Me - sure, I like espresso but if you don't have that then i take it black with two spoons and no sugar, thank you. - everything i say i say with confidence i know what i want, i am not a leaf blown to every which way the wind blows. i the tree planted deep and firmly into the ground, it would take a huge amount of force to sway me from side to side.
The girl - ok (giggles) it will just take a second feel at home - she's off to make the beverages and i am left to my own in her living room.
I look around the room trying to see hints, of if this girl has something of substance about her, is there books or movies around to see what she likes, what type of music dose she listen to the other types of cloths she wares, is the room clean or not and so far and so forth.
as she returns with two mugs in her hands, i am leaning above the living room table with a book in my hand reading the back synopsis,
The girl - here you go black and strong like you like… haha i have to say why you don't like sugar isn't it bitter for you.
Me - i like strong coffee like I like mild tea everything has its taste and place I wouldn't add salt to kosher meat, besides when i want something sweet i could always kiss your lips - i said with a pleasant and warm touch of her back, leading her to sit down and enjoy the hot coffee with me…
We talked about her life what she dose and what she wants, her family and other interests of her life and then when we finished the coffee and cigarettes. i walked up to her close and gentle and i started to kiss her neck.
I don't rush things, I actually prefer fore play then the sex itself, there is something so fun, in teasing and magnifying a persons desire before ending it all together.
I take my time kissing her neck and placing my hands around her body, i firstly touch the small of her back and slowly lead my hand towards her ass with the other i grab firmly her cheek and neck as i kiss her mouth. I close my eyes doing so allowing her to flow with my body and not my mind.
I make this all about her, most girls are not daring with there partner, at first she hugs me and kisses me but she wont allow her hands to explore my body. its fine with me because as i said before giving pleasure is always my pleasure.
I lead her to the sofa i sit her down as i take off my shirt, and i allow myself to start exploring her body further, i touch her breasts and lay my hand between her legs pressing gently on to her pussy. (I don't like to use words like vagina and penis this is not an anatomy class and this is not sexual ed. i call it as i see it and feel it, so if you feel that i am crass or rude then fuck off)
I take off her dress revealing a lovely lace bra and miss matching panties, it was not a g-string or a tanga it was a simple rose coloured panties, which made her look even younger then what she really was, i liked it and disliked it at the same time.
I bent to my knees with my head levelling her crouch, i toke off her panties revealing a bald pussy.
Now i have to say something to any woman reading this, stop shaving your pussy, leave the poor thing alone. don't take me wrong here you can make strips or even do something exotic with your hair, but I don't like fucking preteen girls… hair even if it is a small landing strip showing you the path to pleasure is more sexy and more feminine then a bald pre pubescent cunt.
Even though, i started rubbing her clit all the while looking at her face and eyes she started to moan silently as if letting air pass her mouth and nose, it was cute but i wanted more out of her, so i licked two fingers and inserted the one. i like to use the middle finger first that allows me to grab onto the pussy better, then the first finger dose and its always easer to insert anther finger if needed.
her body started to move and turn her moans grow louder.
I liked the feeling of controlling her pleaser I love the feeling of being in control of her body, I liked it so much that i had to taste her i had to taste the lubricant of her pussy so i put my mouth open on her clit and proceeded to go down on her, she loved it and hated herself at the same time, i fall involve with these feelings, Controlling and creating the duality in a girl and making her question herself and pleaser, but all the while enjoying it.
my other hand unhooked her bra and slowly played with her breasts they where nice a firm, i love the way she allowed herself to be pleased, but at the same time she didn’t.
i wanted to make her cum, but i prolonged it at that moment i did all i could to make her come so close.
and when i could see she was about too, i stopped, when i did she placed her hand on her pussy and rubbed it master-bating in front of me.
Wow i could see she was not aware of herself anymore, she gave into her pleaser to much to even notice she was doing this in front of a stranger.
her moans grow louder and her body countered.
I stood up, which made her realise what was going on and she stopped, i hugged her and put her hands around my waist i bent down again to kiss her mouth, i wanted to see if it would bother her if i would kiss her knowing that her juices where still mixed in my mouth, it didn’t.
i pulled her on to her feet and lead her to her bed room where, i let her take off her bra completely, and lay down on the bed.
i laid on top of her, i kissed and touched every part of her body, i slipped anther finger inside her, and continued to play with her. toying with her as if she was mine all along.
she couldn't take it anymore and started to take off my pants and boxers, i let her, i wanted to see what she would do how would she react, would she be aggressive or passive, would she take my cock into her hand or maybe her mouth or would she let it just hang between my legs letting me decide what to do with it.
you see i don't get hard easy, its not that there is something wrong with me ohh no i am fine, but i am so focused and concentrated that i don't give myself the freedom of just becoming mindless and lust hungry.
i was semi hard and when she realised it she started to massage my cock with her hand, it was not a real hand job or something to that nature, it was tender and sweet, i felt as if my cock was some woodland creature needing a nourishing care and touch.
it didn't make me hard but it did make me happy.
after a minute or so i spat into my hand and started to take care of myself all the while fingering this cute girl into a state of tender and lustful submission. once i felt hard i placed her legs on to my arms and with a guiding hand i penetrated her, i moved slowly and strong inside her, laying above her gently, kissing her neck and mouth, i moved my ass up and down in and out in a very tender but forceful manner.
I built the energy up and high, trying to lose myself inside her.
she was enjoy it i could feel her liquids flow heaver around my cock inside her, i could feel her pussy clinch and release i felt her about to cum.
its a very powerful feeling my cock grows harder and fuller the blood pumps faster, sweat and cum all together allows it to penetrate deeper.
and finally she climaxes.
an orgasm is never the same and two of a kind shall never coexist.
I didn't cum, i didn't feel the need to release semen, i enjoyed everything else but i didn't feel the need or want to climax.
so i exited her warm and pulsing pussy, went to the toilet toke anther piss washed myself and got dressed, i wasn't interested in spending the night or talking about what happened with her, i gave her my number and said she is welcome to call me anytime, and gave her an excuse why i had to go.
it was just anther night, where I allowed myself to partake in the carnal knowledge of anther persons desire and mine.
I wish to end these nights and spend them with someone that i truly care about, someone that my control over them is more then just base needs and vanilla sex. someone that is willing to submit to the deeper sides of my mind.
someone that can give me the need to climax and cum.