לפני כחצי שנה. יום שישי, 26 בדצמבר 2025 בשעה 21:45
I tried to put myself more out there.
Share more openly.
I don't know if I like it. It's very mixed.
Something is wrong with my perception of things.
My expectations too high.
Who am I to think he would fuck me?
Of course I'll stay up until 4:00 only for him to say he'll wake me up if he can get hard.
It's not reasonable for me to expect more, earlier, when I'm not so tired I can't enjoy it without help. When it won't completely fuck up tomorrow and the day after.
I'm not reasonable. I'm not. I'm here for him on his terms in his house and if I don't like it I can leave.
So I'll go to sleep and maybe, if I'm really lucky (which I'm probably not), I'll get to wake up in time to feel him come down my throat.