המתת השור

il y a un loup derriere un dominant et parfois un dominant derriere un loup

no matter what, it seems that i cannot stand my dominant' my companion to be with another woman. no matter what, at one moment or another, my claws seems to want to go out and take back what is "mine" with tears and sorrow,

there is something extremely painful in seeing one''s loved going to another woman
it comes back to my mind with angst and jealousy
when she was there all over him and hers, large bosom, he caressed.
i just could not stand it anymore

one can try and analyse until the face becomes blue
it hurts me furiously and it ends
not well

I shouted at Him the other day through the phone
and i could feel my pain all over again
as if a storm was washing my mind again
a tsunami of anger

all control over myself was out
why deos it hurt so much

if i had an ego as small as a nut, maybe i could stand it
maybe i could say to myself
well who am i finally to consider that i can bring it all
that he cannot enjoy with another woman
the strangest is that these experiences are rich and deep in emotions when they happen
but is is like powder
it has to be handled carefuly
otherwise it blows up in the face

my companion made this mistake and i could not take it anymore
with all the difficulties and failures that we went through
it gave me the impression that it was over
finished
that he did not love me anymore

i cried like a wounded wolf
and then it all ended