המתת השור

deos not have the courage of his feelings
he deos not have feelings
that is why criticism deos not work on him
if you ever touch a bit his narcissistic image
he rages back at you
and dialogue becomes impossible
and it has been like that for years
he never intended to be with me
to be with somebody means to see thatt person
to englobes his needs his joys his sorrow
it became so only when it did interefere with his life
when it gave his a sense of guilt
at the extreme surface of his emotianal structure
so one becomes necessary until one becomes useful
and he used and used again
until i had no more to spare
until all dignity was revoqued

i have chosen to pardon him
i cannot do otherwise
for i am built this way yalthough we have known great wrath one against the other

he has given me the right to be almost ruined and bare
he has taken from the time a child at the gate of the renmant of my life
he has taken my time
he has taken my joy
my dignity and my pride
he has taken
my hope
he has taken my last youth, my sexual image
my eroticism
he has taken almost everything

but i stayed the master of my soul
and the captain of my mind

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