המתת השור

we stay the same we goto shrinks
we go to prechers
just for the wining
but not to change
because change involves too much courage
within our emotional pattern here
i dont have the courage to tell the truth to myself
and to him
i dont have the strength to take my own life
and take the decision
i get stuck in the same olf pattern
of getting non love
and it not just a question of perspective
putting on a make upon the face of the truth
what is the price topay ?
is it really solitude ?
is it really dignity ?
just the priviledge of wining and wining onand on
until we are convinced that we are the real victims here
better to be a victim
have we ever though of its real implication here ?

people are different from us
some are better some are worse
but the choice stays the same \
ours
yes. the world is a victimising place
a place of horror sometimes
but it is only what we choose to see of itmost of the time

standing up on one's side - our own - involves the courage to be a real adult.
to make our choices our own responsability
if i had had a daughter. i would i have taught her that
but i dont so that iwill teach that to myself

i will take that step now
tobe the captain of my fate
and come upfront
not tostay at the back and be lead upon
a route that i have not chosen

our emotional world is one of the most difficult to shift
the hardest to learn
the hardest to know and penetrate deeply
looking for the right spots
with the right will
and the light to light it on upon

i have been victimising love for all my life now
torturing its very nature since time back immemorial
in the process i havepunished myself
i am afraid of love