המתת השור

but this wonderful opportunity for knowledge, 

i started my miserable life through lack of love, neglect. mental depravation and lies.

 it came to such a state that i just could not keep and concentrate on more than 10 minutes. i was so hungry for love that it climbed over all other matters including my intellectual thirst. today, i have learned that i will have to make my way alone 

a fortnight ago, i thought that i would not be alone anymore in my deep sensitivity and in my intelligence, that a man who genuinely loved me and that i genuinely loved would be there for me and the other way round. that we would be a couple, a great sensitivity and sexuality and intellectual search shared together. 

but i have had to depart from that...and the circumstances took us apart. yet another tragedy. it could not be otherwise. although i promised him the beauties of africa and he promised me his patience and his protection. 

i have learned to read the map deeply but was i to impatient. i hurt him and he went through. he went away. 

how do one says good bye to one's love deep in heart ? there is no definite answer to this question. 

i have come to understand that people do walk around sometimes with wounds wide open and never healed.

life is full of tragedies...how can anyone ask for sheerness and giddiness all day long then....