המתת השור

when yet again that embryo of a relationship started when that man started to swift me off my feet; 

to return back to israel the land of my heart, the land of my soul and then, to find a companion to live a full bdsm relationship

He put me in front of my incapacities to do that but then again he left me there without even thinking for a moment  that one is and becomes a

 sub; that it is exactly that....

that guide and love i needed 

and he deemed to give me both 

yet, in a very psychotic kind of way 

again, and again and again, he left me there, a heart and a dream broken 

how in three days a dominant can do both 

here; little by little, i will tell how 

for this time, it did not almost kill me as the previous one

it did not make me stronger 

but it did broke both my dream to be a sub

and to come back home 

i have nothing there to wait for me;