המתת השור

the endless search after substance

that is the question

my feeling is that under a layer of maturity

there is nothing much

this is  because i have lived a lot and i have accumulated experience

but i dispense too quickly and then, my suiters are leaving me

there are the hunters as well

the one who wish for a permanency

but finally are satisfied with a prey only

once reached

and eaten to the marrow of the bone

they leave

one day

somebody will come along

a man who is really going to love me and that i will really love

somebody with whom the cruise of life will be done with relative hapiness and we will enter really the core of love

that is intimacy

and then, many of these above will come and send me a line or two

telling how wonderful i was

but then it will be too late

then i will be happy

as simple as that