המתת השור

more than the other's

time to redeploy

I have had one of the worst night in my life

sick and pushing my body into not sleeping

vomitting my self up is a strong statement

I am actually referring to two things here : the power of an picture; the devastating sum up of a life. it has always been my speciality. you know, when the therapist asks you : "if you look at this little girl of then, today, what do you feel for her ?" 

 well today, i feel my sorrow for myself is immense...

immensely sad

actually, it is not a step back but a step forward

strangely, when one recognize his status of victim ...let's not be afraid of words,

then it is time of reconstruction

but one has to do other things too together with it :

leave the victimizers; in my case the uses, the selfish kind the immensily selfish the types that never ever were able to be here for me

that left the mark of slavery on my shoulder

here; where I live now, i have met this stretching hand

the mere fact of an therapist telling me

it is YOUR time of reconstruction is already meaning so much

be selfish !