המתת השור

who is not half of an idiot, to say the least, says that in relationships, there is a need of two things : 

- symmetry : the love one gives needs to be met with equal desire in response 

- investment : the feeling that the other is willing to invest in the  life of the love shared.

without them, love dies in a sea of insecurities

I was not loved well . I tried to tare bits and pieces of love here and there. It never worked. I understand it today. It is never an easy entreprise to realise that my mother did not love me with that type of love which permits you to thrive and rise above the challenges one can meet in life.

Shall I ever be loved for myself or feel that I am loved for myself? as per today, I feel that I have failed.

do I hope for that love would happen in my life one day ? I doubt it.

How deos one live without love ? it is impossible I reckon

but the mere identification of what is left of in ruins renders the entreprise of building oneself with tools that can be found within.

Yesterday's hope is lost and dead but there is this inner light nevertheless, the light of life is a stubborn one. we hang on it with the utmost despair and until our last breath 

that is what God has granted us; we, miserable humans