המתת השור

Women's condition is stuck between two states; you are desired for your capacity to bring children or by the capacity to quench lust or desire. Between giving birth or giving a blow job, that is women's condition as I feel it. But it does not have to do with me only. My real question here is about the nature of love itself. Are we capable of seeing further than our mere basic needs and be able to love unconditionally ? Life is complicated I know...we are growing and sometimes not, with time but the state of a woman must be beyond that of these two needs to be met : birth and lust.
You would say that here is the last place I should look for a love real love but I am not that silly.
Love never came easy to me, in fact very little. I used BDSM as en expedient to cover the fact that I did not think I was worthy of love : no young enough, not beautiful enough, not clever enough, not obviously enviable ....It is exactly for this reason that I came to ask myself this very question : what is the nature of love and are we loving the love which is far and beyond our own little needs; in other words, how can you identify that you are really loved for WHO you are? or love another ??