Sweet surrender

Another rough night was to be had by me. I'm trying to keep my spirits high, but this medical problom is starting to get on my nerves.
This night was much different though. I had dreams of the subliminal sort. The kind where you understand so much. It was so intense, that I was gratfull, for the urgent wake ups to go and vomit.
I finally awoke with an intense feeling of helplessness, dread and imenses sadness. I've been trying to shake it off for the last hour and a half. I have to start the day on a positive note.
I did feel warmth wash over me, when I remembered that the man whom I love most is celebrating a birthday today. I'm so very happy that he came into my life and showed me so many good times and lots of love. So I will leave the icky feeling behind for now, and focus on the good.
I love you my sweet, darling Ru_vash. Happy birthday!
Tulsa