מזפזפת קדימה

it's been so long.
so long since anything, everthing happened.
i'm awakening now after such a long long nap..
sex is in the air, and when that happens i remember how much i like and NEED pain.
so, so long.

so here i am again,
wondering what's up with the fact that he is the second vanilla guy in a row that i'm kinda going out with...
who is both a man, and not (yet) into any dominance/submission/pain play.

althrough he is really nice, and considerate and fun to hang out with.
so, i'll just see how it goes, and hope for the best