Princess

I hate not knowing.

i hate that my mom has sick a hold on me but sometimes im kinda grateful for it.

i don’t know on what category today’s thing falls on.

i don’t wanna do anything reckless or stupid just because i wanna know and be sure.

i hope ill find a home soon and be sure of things.

Something big is going to happen for me today…

Let’s see…🤷🏽‍♀️🤭🤫

I am not the whiskey you want,
I am the water you need

🎀😌✨👑

I’m not a stop along the way,

i am a destination.

And if you’re refuse to attend I’m going to have to find a replacement….

girls: the wait list please?🙏🏽

I know I’m not supposed to beg anyone to try to be with me or want me or anything actually.

but being a sub, and being me and going through everything I been through in life, I don’t wanna lose a chance that I see potential in.

but I also don’t wanna settle or belittle myself for a “something” that made itself a room not paid in my mind.

so I kinda just wanna go for it and date, but what if I’m not ready? What if it comes out as “convincing “?

im fucking hot, I’m a prize.

i do not need to convince you.

so make your mind and realise that you want me already, and come for coffee.

but with pjs and please- don’t shave😉

If a man asks what you bring to the table- tell him you’ll bring another man that doesn’t ask that.

im intelligent, smart, loving, independent, beautiful, and with passion and dedication.

im loyal, and i have a future I’m in love with.

Cleaning and cooking? Childs play.

what do I bring to the table?

myself.

be grateful.

a fucking princess, act accordingly.

👑🎀⛓️

I broke back down after us.

when I broke things myself, I was fine.

no you know what? I was on top of the world.

but knowing you gave yourself up? Us up? Triggered my fear of abandonment.

But I see clearly now.

im back on my shit.

im the fucking princess.

Next level- queen.

but I’ll always be a princess 👑

I know who I am.

i really do.

i know what I’m worth and what I want.

only if you said something I could work with and only if you saw that it’s all for you and not for me, I would have come back.

i wanna call you and say come over, come home.

come to me now, leave tomorrow night.

let us have one last night of oblivion.

and after you’ll leave, I’ll let go.

we’ll both know we had each other for the last time like we really need.

you will always be my home , my breath of air and my best friend.

thats why it’s so hard not talking to you.

I also try to think about what’s best for you and not hurt you.

but you made your choose and I know what I’m worth and I will not beg or force no man to love or be with me, so tell me why me mind says that because it’s you, I can?

you clearly don’t love me anymore and you clearly better than me now.

but I did my work and I worth an amount that doesn’t ever exist.

so, come home.

come and let’s love for the last time.

Or don’t, I’ll get back to myself in a minute.

i just stupidly thought you’d answer.

every time the door rings at work i think it’s you.

every time i get home i expect seeing you at my door.

but you closed it.

so if you see this- know alaoo.

but you lost me.

so I’m offering one last time.