The Mind & Touch

I want to dominate and then I want the power to switch and be taken over   

I want to be treated like a goddess and then made someone's bitch when their own self control and self restraint can't hold anymore. 

I want to be conquered through the mind (good conversation and clever flirting) 

I want to do this in the dark.

In a park. 

On a train 

Or even in a plane. 

I want to ride fast 

Feel the air in my hair. 

And the freedom that that is there. 

I want to live with every cell and molecule in my body. 

What's my problem? I find it hard to leave my home.. my home is not close to anywhere. I need to be taken to these places by loving good people who know what is good, who empower and build up. Requires someone to come get me and bring me back to Afula.

I was many years in the clutches of narcissism and wasn't allowed wants nevermind expressing them. They were absolutely in no mind to hear and fulfill. 

I want to have that power of demand/request/command/ I want someone willing to do so because I'm their queen that they will overpower making them my king. 

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I'm stuck in staring positing reviving to go..

Requires people who understand needs and who are on the frequency of fulfilling those needs. 

I like bikes..I have fantasies of Harley Davidson's but I am not picky. 

Are you around? 

Are you out there? 

Are you reading this anonymous post and smiling? 

Are you going to take a leap of faith and do something about this predicament I have? 

Message me and we will see what happens. 

A peaceful and exciting Shabbat to all. 

❤️

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I want to go but need to be taken. 

I have the hottest lady doctor that I have ever had. He said we need to do a papsmear and I'm like YES PLEASE! 

I dont like medical but I like being touched. Hahahahahah 

Highlight of my week.

You know you live in Israel when your sex fantasies involve

• people in uniform back from war.
• Having sex watching the iron dome do its thing 

All done in the comfort of a mamad. 

😂 

The way he touched me sent shivers through every cell in my body. 

Never has anyone given my body, such interest and such pleasure at the same time. 

No games. No toys. 

Simple and slow 

Control doesn't always have to be viscious and wild and rough from the begining. On the contrary. It should start in sinsere curiosity at how the other person's body works. Reverence given to what you have in your hands. 

A woman's body, no matter what side of the whip she likes, needs to be worshiped before anything else. Well it is for me at least.  

I want to do things that scare me. That make me feel alive. 

I want more out of life. I want to leave my house, feel the sun on my skin, breathe fresh air, be in nature, and go to parties where I can lose myself in the music and energy. I crave the full experience of the beauty and wonder that this world has to offer.

But PTSD is my monster, and it keeps me locked inside. It wraps me up in fear and isolation, making it hard to break free. Living in Afula without driving adds another layer to that confinement, making me feel boxed in. My comfort zones—while familiar—have become like cages. And I know deep down that these are just learned behaviors. They're patterns I’ve built over time to cope, but I need to break out of them. 

I can’t do this alone. I need a guide. Someone I trust, someone who understands me. A person who sometimes knows what’s good for me even before I do. I need someone who can gently help me break through these walls I’ve built. 

Even after everything I’ve been through, I’m blessed to still have hope. I still have love, joy, kindness, empathy, and optimism inside me. I believe in the beauty of life, and I know that there’s so much more out there waiting for me. I’m ready to embrace it.

Where are the people who aren’t afraid of depth, who live with raw emotion? People who are spiritually, physically, and naturally connected, who come from a place of love. I want to meet people who understand the power of surrender, trust, and vulnerability. People who are comfortable enough with themselves to let go, to experience life fully, and who aren’t afraid to show their true selves. 

I like to start from a place of control. I enjoy playing with my partner’s self-restraint, pushing their boundaries in a dance of tension and anticipation. I want to test the limits, exploring the space between control and surrender, until that moment when their body takes over, and the power shifts between us. There’s something so powerful in that shift, in watching the restraint break and feeling the connection deepen as we move into a different space. 

And then, when it’s over, we return to a space of warmth and affection. Hugged and kissed, we come back to love.

I’m putting my truth out into the universe. I’m ready for what’s next, and I trust that the universe will work out the details.