I want more out of life. I want to leave my house, feel the sun on my skin, breathe fresh air, be in nature, and go to parties where I can lose myself in the music and energy. I crave the full experience of the beauty and wonder that this world has to offer.
But PTSD is my monster, and it keeps me locked inside. It wraps me up in fear and isolation, making it hard to break free. Living in Afula without driving adds another layer to that confinement, making me feel boxed in. My comfort zones—while familiar—have become like cages. And I know deep down that these are just learned behaviors. They're patterns I’ve built over time to cope, but I need to break out of them.
I can’t do this alone. I need a guide. Someone I trust, someone who understands me. A person who sometimes knows what’s good for me even before I do. I need someone who can gently help me break through these walls I’ve built.
Even after everything I’ve been through, I’m blessed to still have hope. I still have love, joy, kindness, empathy, and optimism inside me. I believe in the beauty of life, and I know that there’s so much more out there waiting for me. I’m ready to embrace it.
Where are the people who aren’t afraid of depth, who live with raw emotion? People who are spiritually, physically, and naturally connected, who come from a place of love. I want to meet people who understand the power of surrender, trust, and vulnerability. People who are comfortable enough with themselves to let go, to experience life fully, and who aren’t afraid to show their true selves.
I like to start from a place of control. I enjoy playing with my partner’s self-restraint, pushing their boundaries in a dance of tension and anticipation. I want to test the limits, exploring the space between control and surrender, until that moment when their body takes over, and the power shifts between us. There’s something so powerful in that shift, in watching the restraint break and feeling the connection deepen as we move into a different space.
And then, when it’s over, we return to a space of warmth and affection. Hugged and kissed, we come back to love.
I’m putting my truth out into the universe. I’m ready for what’s next, and I trust that the universe will work out the details.
