ZFT

Grinding this song all day long 🎶🎶

But don't look back in anger...

I will keep trying until the end of times.

We live and then we die as one

Yeah, we all live under the same sun

I told you I was out in the woods. 

But I still left a key under the mat for the wolves

From my previous post we learned that time may split from different dimensions.
But there is one fact that we all know and it's that time is always moving forwards. We can never take back the time that we lost, at least not in our current technology, so we're trying to live our lives as best as we can. 
I didn't always know what I want in life, I still don't know everything I want. I've fooled around and did some things without thinking of the outcome (which sometimes turned to the best, some for the worst). All in all, I don't regret about anything but I do learn from everything, the good and the bad (or at least trying). 

One thing I learnt in the past year is (how original) about relationship and love. 
I'm looking for a relationship (obviously), a serious relationship (wow, daring today aren't we), a defined.. relationship (can you get to the point already?).
I don't ask anyone to come forward and like "hey, you seem like a cool kid, let's be together", no. Those things takes time, a lot of time, and energy.. from both sides. What I do want is more like.. "hey, you seem like a cool kid, I would like to try that out". Like sure, if the connection and chemistry is mutual and the intentions are mutual, I would like to try it out and see how it goes. No one can guarantee it will work out, but the intention is there. 
What I don't want is "Hey, you seem like a cool kid, I don't know what I'm looking for, let's try this out and I'll figure out what I want on the go". 

Now look, I can be too much sometimes, like, way too much. I can be annoying, being overly enthusiastic about a person I feel great connections with and I'm really into. I can sometime makes early declarations (Just stop me and tell me to calm down, it will do the trick) and I can ramble on about some stupid nerdy topics because, lets face it, I am a nerd. I'm not looking to define a new relationship right away, I am all into taking things slow and steady, study the other person, catching feelings and see if it really is mutual, after time, to make "The talk". 
But I DO need is the intention, the path, the understanding that "Hey, You're looking for a serious relationship, I am looking for it as well. Make to you know what you're going into or don't step into my webs at all". And listen, I'm not talking about monogamy, polyamory or any of that. I'm open minded about those things. But I am looking for a MAIN partner in my relationship, that "significant other", that one with some kind of true and deep connection that makes you wanna fly. That one with some kind of magic power that you can't explain nor deny its presence in your area. 

As you see in my long and tedious posts, I do ramble a lot, I don't even know if my posts are coherence, I'll try to improve it (or not) later. 

now im riding round town with my thoughts on you

just want to hear you say its all you think of too

and i dont need shit to make sense

i dont really care when it feel like this

gggiiiiirrrrlllll

i just want to be where you are

i dont want this feeling to stop

but if heaven has other plans

we could still make a run for it

Sometime we are, as a specie, drawing inspiration from other people or characters that makes us look different on our lives.

The character I'm going to talk about today is a fictional one, and it's name is eevee.

Eevee is the one poke on that can adapt to a changing environment. He can see a path that he struggle in and change, evolves to match to it and have the upper hand on the situation he is in. 

Our lives are full of different unexpected difficulties that coming at us at any given time. Some of them are easy to pass and some will bring us to our knees, making us question our ability to pass them and continue to fight. 

Eevee taught me that we can never give up. Everything and comes toward us is a lesson to learn from, something that can and will make us stronger if we have the willpower to endure and survive. 

So be like eevee, keep growing, keep evolving, never give up. Your life worth so much and every struggle we conquer leads us toward a better life. 

Do you know that feeling where you're doing something, meeting someone, walking through a place and It feels...
familiar, like you've been there before? 
When I've seen you, talked to you, that's the feeling I'm getting, some kind of weird connection like It happened already.
Like, our conversation, looking at your picture, something feels new but yet again so familiar.

That feeling known as Deja vu - most man will tell you that what you feel is just a trick of the mind, a delay in the processing of sensory input, creating the illusing of a moment experiencing twice. But maybe that's not it, no... It feels too real, too detailed, like you've actually been in that exact moment before.
Imagine time, most of us thinks about time as linear but what if time, our own universe is not just a single thread streching across, what if it's a vast, multi-dimentional quilt, but every decision we make makes a new thread with a new path, the one that was not taken?
So when you feel that Deja vu moment, It's not a memory of this moment, experienced moment ago, It's an echo, a whisper, a glimps of another you, a version very close to you but slightly different, a version who already lived that exact instant in a different time. 

Now don't limit your mind to the mandane way of thinking, because if you can imagine it, it can happen.
If so, if that's really the Deja vu is, If that feeling I get when I'm talking to you, around you is that glimps, than I want to keep experiencing it.
To explore that possibility, to see, feel what the other us already felt back who knows when. 
That "road untaken" feels good, it feels right. Its a feeling I want to keep throughout every possible timeline, universe, whatever you want to call it, 
and see if it also have a happy ending.

But yet again, we can all agree that this is just the beginning.. this time. 

בומים, בייבי בומים, שוב הגיעו בומים בייבי לא משנה לאן.