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Poem קטן על הסם הכי קשה להשגה

she gave me love

dripped it slow
like poison wrapped in honey

just enough
to ruin me

i didn't know it then—
how one night
could rot a man from the inside
how soft skin could carve so deep

then she vanished
no scream
no slam
just absence
like a needle pulled from the vein mid-high

and i spiraled

clawing at ghosts
fingering empty bottles
kissing strangers who never tasted like her
sweating out her name
in motel beds and bathroom floors

i needed it
that fix
that hit
that goddamn feeling
like flying without wings
like dying but pretty

but nothing came close

now i'm dry
shaking
bones buzzing
stomach curled in
eyes burned out

still craving
still bleeding her
like she’s the drug
and i’m the fool who thought
i could handle a taste