חמוד כושל ומבשל

In my life I've been alternately called cute (when I expose myself minimally) or called fucking weird (when I speak directly from the heart)
I was endlessly considered sick because I don't censor and I could care about the "worst" things
yet even non-weirds are assholes who worship death (see Jesus, michal jackson) and are scared shitless of any sincere ("childish") display of life (emotion)
In a sense I will always hate this world. I'm willing to live with this conflict