נָתַתִּי רוּחִי בְּךָ וְאֶת חַיֶּית

The eyes are the windows to the soul. You have always been a little different. Seeing everything in everything and listening. Sometimes it’s too much to take in in one mind. It makes you impatient. It’s not that you’re pushing it aside; it’s that when everything fills you, everything inside gets repressed deeper. It becomes hard to express yourself. But your goal is always the most important. Goals are the name of the game for you. The more goals, the more fuel for the soul
It drives you which is why you thrive with structure. Everything has to be under control
Your desire to know everything, to touch the depths, to lose control probably comes from the entirety of your personality and ambitions.
Everything always has to be here and now and done well, which causes an internal loneliness.
But in the end you’ll understand that you need to choose carefully who you keep by your side.
Someone to accept you for who you are, to understand without an explanation.

You are galloping towards your target, sometimes losing yourself if the result isn’t immediate, here and now. You need someone to help, to give, to advise, to guide, to be everything. But only when needed. That’s why structure is best for you. You always do everything that is needed in the best possible way. You have to be whole in your doing.

Being yourself comes naturally. So much for you to hold in to contain in but who holds the woman, the child who became everything, who holds in everything. And oh how good you are, so kind. Sometimes it seems to you that you’re too kind but It’s all about dosage. And that’s what you’re trying to learn: how to dose yourself, with who you are. You’re looking for the perfect to be whole That’s always the goal, consciously or subconsciously, it will become clear in time.

eli dom/god