נָתַתִּי רוּחִי בְּךָ וְאֶת חַיֶּית

I can close my eyes to the things I don’t want to see
I can move around to avoid others
I can filter my words, choose who to listen to
Assess what’s important to hear and what is not
I can touch, shake a hand, be a shoulder to lean on to whomever I choose
And to those I don’t, I can be cold and distant
If I really want, I can control my thoughts
Think about anything I want without anyone knowing what’s really in my head
To act, to become who I decide
Be tough or easygoing
Laugh or smile
To be or to ponder
I can choose to control my time
Quit my job
Take time for myself
To choose who to answer to
Who to return to
Where to invest my effort

But one thing I can’t do
I can’t close my heart to the things I feel
And I feel you 24/7
By my side, like blood in my veins
Of my blood
I can’t control my desire for you to be mine
You’re mine, no other way to explain or control it
In love you don’t need reason
You just need to really feel it
When it comes, the price doesn’t matter
It’s everything
It’s the result of everything I’ve done for myself
The love beside me in life
It doesn’t reduce me or prevent me from doing things
It empowers me
Even if I deny it vehemently for one reason or another
The feeling is everything to me
It reminds me that nothing else matters
A car, a job, a house, an entire life
And one feeling can topple or build me
So love me like I love you
Even if I make a mistake, don’t worry
We’ll fix it
Destroy everything and then rebuild it
Because everything is worth the moments we spend together