Felicity

Will it ever stop? This pain.

Will I ever be okay?

Because right now I kind of feel like I want to be in a coma for a month.

I can't escape my mind. It's relentless.

It won't leave me the fuck alone. 

And it hurts.

I feel like I'm drowning. 

And I can't stop this immense feeling, that I'm unraveling.

Falling deeper into the abyss. 

I want to scream. And kick. And cry.

But no one will hear me.

Or dry the tears from my eyes.

I'll never be okay. 

No matter how hard I try.

I'll only be ok when my thoughts are laid to rest, when I die.

And even then, I'll probably suffer in some after-life.

Because I guess that's what I'm destined for.

Pain.