He was the fulfillment of my dream. To me he was a god, all mighty god, I could not resist him and certainly not telling him no. I never refused him and he never made me feel like I want to refuse. Also I never thought about the possibility of refusing him, his deep brown eyes with the long eyelashes that never end always showed me the reflection of my hollow heart that only wanted to be shown how to exist, it always showed me that there was someone, one among all these men, one who could really see I wanted to be a good disciplined girl. I wanted to show him that I was the best. I wanted to prove that no one else would be able to replace me, and that's why I did not think for a minute to refuse my master, the Lord that is here only to watch for me and let me serve him the best I can give him.
We met in a chat in the middle of the night. I always had insomnia and could never fall asleep during the normal hours for my age, let alone falling asleep when my parents dictated to me. I spent the night in a deep acquaintance with people in chat, hours of conversations, some of which led to my private email, and even to quiet telephones and whispering under the blanket in the wee hours of the night.
Avishai offered me something different, new, something I had never known. A game in which each person has a specific role and everyone knows how to play it. He suggested that I try a relationship of domination. He explained it in the simplest way possible. "You will always do what I tell you, I will never hurt you, it will always be in agreement and I will never invade areas where you do not feel comfortable." The invitation and explanation attracted me very much, I always wanted to swim in the deep waters, the water that must not be entered, which is a red line and a forbidden border. I wanted to feel what total surrender is. "Sub-space, this is where all the submissives want to reach, it's an orgasmic and amazing feeling that I must give you, you'll love it but even if you wont, I will always know when to stop" He explained. I loved that he wanted to please me, I never felt it because I have always been the giver part and never the receiver. I am a fantasy, I am happiness and the quiet place to escape to it and he offered me refuge in his muscular arms, offering me comfort and amazing adventures I had never known. He suggested that I release a heavy burden that was always on me. He offered to take control of his hands and allow me to relax and rest. He took the lead.
Avishai taught me how to behave according to his rules, to know that my place is as his submissive, but in his heart I will always be his charming Eve. He taught me to call him a Master and what it means. We talked for several months until I agreed to meet, I was on thorns and I wanted to see who the amazing master that waited for me.