New year's affirmation:
I'm brave.
I'm smart.
I'm a good friend.
I love people unconditionally,but don't mistaken me as stupid or naive. I'm neither. I just chose not to fight you so I could love you. It's up to you if you want to be loved by me.
I'm a fighter.but ..
I'm a greater lover.
I'm hopelessly devoted to these I care about and hopelessly romantic.
I'm Worthy. I am enough!!!
I'm not perfect . But I'm cute. And funny. And nice. And beautiful. Not fat and beautiful. Not big and beautiful.. just beautiful.. my size. Isn't what makes me beautiful or not..
Im not a failure just because I'm having a hard time... Im a success!! Because with that.. I am the passionate, warm, cuddly person I am and didn't became a bitter, toxic person I could be.
Been through hell and back, survived thing others would not.
I have seen things..
I've been through things that not one human being should have been through.
I won death when he was out to get me.
I lived through pain beyond the reasonable. Beyond what you can imagine.
There are things in my life I would take to my grave with me.. but the people who really know me, knows all the the above is the absolute truth.
Sticks and stones won't break my bones?
Well...they might..but not my spirit. I've been bruised, I have been abused in all kinds of ways.i have been mistreated.
I have an experience with a broken heart.. and still.. I believe in love. I choose to believe in good. And in friendships,and kindness, compassion and I still manage to get up in the morning , with hope that everything will be okay and eventually.. I will be there. As Winnie the Pooh once said . There is a honey in the top of that tree, and only reason there is a honey..it's all for me..
So . Withh red balloon, or climbing every branch, to get stung by a bee, or to fall on my bottom while trying.. I will get to that tree top.
All that honey..waits for me!!!
I lost a lot over the years.. but I gained something far more important. I.. gained me.