Evidence of existence

I like being challenged. I like having to push the boundaries of creativity. My mind working overtime, a restlessness taking over.

Yet I remain calm. I am not easily swept off my feet - I never surrender to the weather within or without.

This clash between mind and heart causes undercurrents in my being. I am here but I am not really.I am past present and future.

I am bored. Of life and of cycles of expectation and disappointment. Of downs that are followed by nothingness...

I am here because I am bored. Of pretending. Of fitting in. Of living...

The main reason I keep on living is my pets. I am everything to them and they need me. I cannot let them down... It is their privilege, not mine....