מי אני, מה אני...

Hi again.

Its been a while since I've been here.

I decided to write here today because, even though I doubt anyone here cares, I wanted to vent about leaving.

I'm a submissive, I'm a little, I'm a bit of a brat at times.

I'm also dating a vanilla guy.

How does that work? Well, it doesn't.  Not really.

I love him and he loves me, but I feel like a part of me, this part, the kinky part, is dying.

I need him to be able to pull my hair, to spank me, to command me, to tie me up and tease me until I cry.

But I know he never will. And asking him to do any of these things, makes me feel like I'm corrupting him...

He experienced me in little space recently, I was crying and sobbing and he was so confused as to why this tall grown woman crying like a child. And I couldn't explain...

So I'm leaving this world behind me, I will live my life without it. At least until I break.