Sweet surrender

I looked deep inside and was amazed to find out that I don't need it.
I am full, and complete. I found what I needed, and for the first time it was more that enough.
I debated, thought, fantasized about what if and how. It all came back to the same conculsion, I have what I need and won't find anything that can top that.
By my nature I am not a greedy person. I am simple in my demands.
When the realization of my own fulfilment dawned on me, I was washed over with a calm that filled and soothed any type of unanswered questions. I had released myself to myself.
The feeling is soo foreign to me, but I choose to be in the moment and the feeling.
I now have much more knowlege than I did before this whole thing of my passport to visit in different places.
I have been on both sides now. I have been on the side of wishing and hoping and yearning that I would be allowed to experience anything and everything under the sun.
I wasted soo much time on that , that I cheated myself out of fully living the moment, and being at one with my heart, my body, my soul, and myself.
I feel like a winner now. I have won love, respect and self worth from me to myself.
I will never understand the way that others operate on these matters, and I don't think that I need to. All that I can hope is that they get a chance to experience the same sort of tranquil bliss that I have.