Sweet surrender

If I had to compare my way of dealing with my emotions then and now, it's like I was reborn, and the other Timid never exsited.
It's not as if I don't have pangs of jealousy, anger, disapointment, or lonliness. I do, and at times quite a lot.
But now I let these feelings surface. I look them square in the eye and recognize them. I'm not afraid to deal with the pinches of pain that they cause.
I try and work on myself every day. It's to everyones benifit, but mostly mine.
The sense of calmness is a feeling that can become addictive.
Once I chased anguish and turmoil. Today I turn over every stone to find my peace. The long and winding road of becoming the person that I was meant to be.