Sweet surrender

I guess that I'm at that point in life where a person usually digs deep inside theirselves and looks for answers to the millions of unanswered questions.
My head is working over time, and I rarely find any logic.
Several years ago when I was in my spiritual stage in life one of my mentors at the time said something to me that snapped me out of my childish way of looking at life.
He said that right now is the time. There are no dress rehersals, there is no second chance. This is the grand performance, and this is the round that counts.
His words haunt me daily. I have to make it right, and I have to make it good.
I can't keep drifting through in a half coma state anymore, because there will be no way to retrieve lost yesterdays.
I listen to this this song quite alot lately. It's words usually manage to fill me with a sliver of hope.

Coldplay ---Lost
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Just because I’m losing
Doesn’t mean I’m lost
Doesn’t mean I’ll stop
Doesn’t mean I will cross

Just because I’m hurting
Doesn’t mean I’m hurt
Doesn’t mean I didn’t get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I’ve tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off…

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn’t mean you’ve won
‘Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you’ll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the firing starts
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I’m just waiting till the shine wears off…