In 45 minutes I have to get on a bus.
I don't drive (plenty of opportunity just no encouragement or the encouragement was not from a place of love). Over the past 2 years my stress levels have caused confusion and panic attacks when it comes to getting from A to B. Either I get off the wrong stop, take the wrong bus, get off the right stop and then am convinced that it's wrong and get back on. This happens with trains and buses. Not so bad in the city but going out it's a little stressful 😄
I have taken myself alone:
- to the emergency room
- shar menashe (I got myself out after a night)
- out of an abusive relationship x3
- the death of both parents who didn't love me
- physical, mental and emotional abuse and neglect
- a fair share of surgeries.
- mental breakdown
- came near death June 2023
AND I AM EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE
I'm invincible!
Here I go
I will conquer my fear until only I remain
Update: bus drove right past me. I realized as I was looking at its ass drive away.
